For some the contemplation of the Passion of Christ may occur only one day of the year…Good Friday.
In the beginning of my spiritual journey with Jesus I was afraid to meditate on the Passion of Our LORD. I was afraid to see God suffering. I think I was even afraid to see the price of my sins…but Jesus kept urging me to honor Him by meditating on His Passion.
So with some fear, I began to take a walk with Him to Calvary. I now do this every day at 3pm, the time He died for us.
This is my meditation:
The Last Supper is completed. Jesus has given His apostles the Sacrament of the Eucharist. He has washed their feet and instructed them to serve and now Jesus and His chosen apostles enter the Mount of Olives singing a hymn. This will be the last time Jesus sings with His friends. Jesus descends into the dark Garden of Gethsemane. He has asked His apostles not to sleep but they have fallen asleep and alone Jesus sees all that He is to suffer. In anguish, I hear His loud cries to the Eternal Father. Jesus is truly God and He is truly Man and His humanity cries out for solace while His divinity accepts His most painful mission. I see an angel come from heaven to comfort Jesus telling Him how much we will all love Him and Jesus drenched in perspiration and blood accepts His Father’s will. The soldiers seize Jesus and He is so brutally tortured. The scourging alone could be enough to kill a man, but Jesus is so strong. Jesus is crowned with thorns and our sins are the thorns causing Jesus so much pain! We are all responsible for every drop of blood that He sheds and yet how many days and years go by without souls saying “I love You” to the Holy One who gave everything to spare His people from the price of Divine Justice.
I see the Holy Mother of God, stoic and yet sharing spiritually in every pain Her Son endures. Oh what shame and continuous insults! Jesus is pushed to the ground, mocked and forced to carry His own Cross up the Hill to Calvary. I see Him fall. I see His eyes so full of tears and pain yet full of resolve and hope…Jesus is saving the world! He is crushing the devil’s head as it was prophesied in Genesis 3:15. I hear Jesus cry out as He is crucified, “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” Luke 23:34 I see Him hanging on the Cross in agony, struggling to breathe. Our Mother Mary stands in front of Him, strengthened by the grace of God. Her gaze never leaves Him…People in the background are still taunting Him, hurling insults….But we love Him!…And with a sword in our heart, we never take our eyes off Him! He gives us His Mother, honoring the Blessed Virgin in His last moments of life. “Behold your Mother.” John 19:26 The Virgin Mary’s communion with the Holy Spirit and with her Son Jesus is eternal and so too is ours if we choose, like Mary, to consent to God’s plan. How do we bid farewell to the Holy One who is dying on the Cross? We don’t!…He promised He would not leave us orphans. He promised He would be with us in the Eucharist and that He would send His Spirit upon us so that He could live in us. He promised He was going to prepare a place for us and that He would be with us always until the end of time.
This walk has changed my life. I do this every day at 3pm, the time Our Lord Jesus died for us and it has resulted in a relationship of intimacy that I cannot describe in words. The Passion of Our LORD Jesus Christ changed my life and it will change the world…one soul at a time…and as each soul enters truly and deeply into the suffering of Our God, we are transformed; we are renewed; we are sanctified. Temptation loses it’s grip. His wounds are upon our hearts. We become His Bride!